Holy shit, that was a lot of people.

So, earlier tonight, we had the choir concert. It went awesome, (or so I think - hope you feel better soon, OB!) and I really enjoyed myself. While we there, though, I realised that I'm really starting to regret not participating in all this school wide stuff more when I was younger - specifically drama and choir - and it's really nagging at my conscience. I am genuinely sad that I did not have the foresight to get into those programs while I could because, now, the chance is gone. It's over. I fucked that one up completely, and now I have no way to rectify it. Chance = blown. It is disheartening. same with the Music Marathon - I thought I had an opportunity to be in it at 4:00 PM, and started planning what I was going to play, but Jake got to it first (Damn you and your swiftness, I say!). There're no hard feelings from me, fair is fair, but I just really regret not getting a chance to get out there and do things while I can. I'm going to tell every Grade 8 I can that I regret not doing these things, and that there is no happy, flowery ending on it - I missed out, big time. Do it now, while you can. Otherwise, you end up feeling like you have a great big hole in the pit of your stomach because you lost that golden opportunity.

I also realised that the Performing Arts Centre is big. Like... damned big. It is huge. And Carol-Ann & I have to go out there, all alone, with something we've made. That shit is easily the most intimidating and daunting thing I think I will ever face, and that worries me greatly. I'm sure we can do it, but that is a LOT of people and a LOT of pressure. We will have to work our asses off to get it down.

I was going to play a couple acoustic Alkaline Trio songs, an acoustic Anberlin song and a couple of my own at the Music Marathon, in case you were wondering, after seeing that up there. I was going to play Sorry About That (Live acoustic version in link) and Blue In the Face by Alkaline Trio, The Unwinding Cable Car by Anberlin and Torn (Raise Your Glass) and possibly Sunburns (working title - any suggestions once I get it up on here would be well appreciated) by myself. Both of the songs I wrote are capoed weird, now that I think about it - I guess I like my acoustic songs to be odd sounding. They're both sad sounding, but not overly so - they're more quiet than sad, I guess. Anyways, I'll post the lyrics up in another post in a bit, when the lyrics to Sunburns is complete. I'm starting to come around to the title, now that I've written it once or twice, though I would still like suggestions on what you think once the lyrics up.

That's all for tonight, though - I am off to sleep, for the adrenaline rush from the concert mixed with the excitement from having written the PERFECT guitar bits for Sunburns have made me a happy but tired camper. Good night, everyone.

Sleep well.

P.S: I just put labels on this post, and one of them is "Sincere & Lasting Regrets." That sounds like a wicked album title, doesn't it? Let me know what you think.

Of transcendental meditation and other stuff...

I was watching an interview with Alkaline Trio, and Matt Skiba said that he recently started doing something called transcendental meditation. He said that it made him very calm and relaxed and stuff, but he also brought up an interesting point: he said that, before this new form of meditation, he thought that being in a negative frame of mind was extremely good for the creative process. Now that he had started meditating and relaxing and letting go of his anger and frustration, however, he says that he believes the opposite to be true.

I, personally, think that negative emotions translate well to the creative process, and I would go so far as to say that all of my lyrics are living proof of that, but I'm curious - what do you guys think?

In other news, I just started the music for Burning Bridges, and it's mostly a piano song. Once I get someone who is actually... you know... good at piano, I might jazz it up a bit, per se, but I'm liking it, so far. Simplicity, piano wise, but a bit complex with the guitar. Just some overdriven guitar over the piano, but it's very solo-like. Kinda jazzy. It's cool, I'll post it later on.

That's all I have to say, tonight - I'm fucking depressed.

Sleep well.